Victory

I finally did it
I told 'em about you
Now nothing is hidden
I wish I'd have dealt with it sooner
Yeah, I should've listened
Get out of my head now
Yeah, you don't belong here
I'm kicking you out
You've taken too much from me
Now I'm just taking it back
Or anyway, whatever's left of it, yeah
I was expecting incredible weight off my chest
A poetic shedding-of-skin
Or maybe I'd rise up like lazarus, back from the dead
But no
It's a process of choosing my future instead of whatever pops into my head
And at this point, I'm sick of you saying I'm better of dead
Yeah
I still got the scars from you tearing me apart
I deal with them every single day
But now they're starting to fade
Starting to wash away
'Cause I've been remade
And now I'm a whole different person
Now I'm a whole different man
I guess that it had to get worse and then it gets better
I guess it was part of the plan, yeah
I'm tryna give this my everything
Don't try to test me my patience is very thin
I guess that's an issue
I'll leave that 'till later but yes I'm aware of it
I know that I need to take care of it
Honestly, I'm kinda scared of it
One moment imma be fine
The next, imma let it all, let it all
Go
Fell apart, now I'm stuck in the rubble
Trying not to be just another piece of the puzzle
When I stumble, I get messy and my words will get fumbled
I need to be humbled
I'll leave it up to God up in heaven to give me a blessing
Or maybe even give me a weapon
To kill my demons
Everything is getting difficult to sleep with
I've been thinking I've bee dreaming for too long I need to make it a reality and take the wheel
Make 'em feel
Make it real, Yeah
This is my life, I don't care what you say
Imma do it 'till I hit the grave
This is my life, I'm ignoring all the hate
And you'll never ever make me change
For your sake
I'm off my chains, I don't got no leash on the brain
I'm taking my aim, I'm woo
I'm long range, I'm long range
I don't play no games

This is a message of victory
It's about me making history
It's about Jesus, who lives in me
Using the gifts that he gives to me
Becoming who we are is the part that is hardest
If you look into my heart, every part is an artist
If you look into my soul, every part is a wordsmith, servant
That's why I bleed music, it runs in the gene pool
I swear I need to do this
But it only works if I'm wounded
So I take a look at the bruises
I'm reminded of a time when everything was fine then
I got a violent mindset
The little boy playing with his toys, with dreams in his eyes
Went somewhere nobody could find him
And he created the chains that bind him
Inebriated by the pain, and he feels like it defines him
So he lets it, until the rigor mortis sets in
But now he's changing the way that he looks at the world
He's figuring out that he doesn't have to be captive to Nobody else
Yeah, he could do something that actually matters
Instead of just walking in circles or backwards
And be more than a coward, and show all these idiots that they're just the foundation under the tower

You're under my boot
I don't got nothing to lose, but so much to gain
I'm digging my roots
Walk in my shoes, and I promise you, It's not a cruise
I've been through a lot, I am the proof
I'm taking my shot at the top and you probably won't me to stop
(I'm not gonna stop)
I take what I get and I give what I got
You can expect that I always do more than expected
And I do not need your acceptance (I've learned my lesson)
You should respect it, I write from the chest
And that's funny 'cause I am the worst of the wretched
Whatever the case, I'll always be here for you
Life isn't falling to pieces, the pieces are falling in place