To Dust

Yes I called out your name
But you just didn't care
I drove for miles and miles and wound up just fallen on the floor

I guess I acted tame
It's just you scare me when you're there
Cause I've practiced speeches on speeches to walls that don't end all in tears

Laughter, and crowding her for hours turned to dust
Cause my decision settled in her blood

I guess we've learned what you'd call "just a little"
But I say that bit accounts for quite a lot
I promise it's the truth that I'm committal
But I get why you can't trust me from the start
It's worse than bad
I set the bar
Then broke your heart
The worst part is that I still have mine
But it has no use if yours died

It's called self sabotage
It murdered all the odds
Of you trusting in me and me trusting that you'll call the shots

I'm scared that you won't try
Why would you fucking try
Am I really selfish enough to share feelings I tortured you by

Laughter, and crowding her for hours turned to dust
Cuz my decision settled in her blood

I guess we've learned what you'd call "just a little"
But I say that bit accounts for quite a lot
I promise it's the truth that I'm committal
But I get why you can't trust me from the start
It's worse than bad
I set the bar
Then broke your heart
The worst part is that I still have mine
But it has no use if your

Gone from my life
Forever this time
You know I thought what I did would be good in the end
They say don't fix what ain't broke
I thought that line was a joke
But I never would've tried if I knew it meant that you'd despise me forever

But now you're saying that we've fixed what broke a little
And I say that little counts more than you know
The truth is I'm just scared that I belittled
The idea of a future months ago
It's worse than bad
I set the bar
Then broke your heart
The worst part is that I still have mine
But it has no use if yours died