One Of Em

Talking to myself i need therapy
Praying to the man upstairs but he aint hearing em
Dont show me fake love i dont need you to put no care in me
Seen my mother in my dreams alive and it was scaring me cuz she dead

So how the fuck did that just happen
Please give me some time im talking to you not just rapping
Focused on my goals i go where the money takes me at
And i give you my loyalty you fuck it up I'll take it back

Walking everywhere i forgot to fill the gas tank
They cremate his body got no urn they used a ashtray
Somebody son laying in his blood his eyes closing
Ambulance got the call past the block and kept going

Shit im hopinh that they spin back,they wont because the kid's black
Maybe if he was white then you prolly wont forget that
I cant believe yall did that the mother screaming dont go
Tryna keep his soul close you had one job and pulled a no show

Thats bullshit,where do we get help now
Us you always let down,up on one leg after i fell down
Im trying,but everybody's dying
Its way too many funerals not everybody's crying

Tell me how you feel and imma listen i relate well
Its a reason niggas on the run because they hate jail
It be ya own blood sending hate mail succeed because i cant fail
I told em watch that bitch because she aint thurl

Opps had that girl set him up so she can fake em out
Put him on a blind date just so they can take em out
Its hurts to fall in a hole and you can't make it out
Now and days the real turn to fake tryna play it out

Shit is getting scary in this world we need guidance
Everyday we seek for help but only see sirens
Plus we need preaching,hands out but aint nobody reaching
I might get killed i talk on whats true so I aint speaking

Tryna stay alive so im staying in
You can step one foot out the door and might not make it in
Didn't wanna wait for them checks instead he made a sin
Himself is really all he got his finals words was stall me god

I know that we living in a world where we die quick
People get bored see a gun and wanna try shit
You don't gotta prove you real if I already saw it
And I aint scared of death but that doesn't mean im ready for it

Everyday we take precaution passing signs of caution
Yellow tape all near the body but they never white chalked it
So maybe he still breathing,i told him stay wit me but he was leaving
Man I can't believe he took thay kid life cuz he aint need it

I know somebody's cheering hope they proud of me
Took a pic in front of angel wings hope it don't become reality
You don't have a reason do it man you just doubting me
Watch my back when im out even if they aint out for me

Street smart but still i play the sidewalk
Niggas lose everything they have and claim its god fault
Speaking from within its better to let my mind talk
Thought i never see me struggle well thats what my eyes thought

Feel like im the greatest at this point thats all confidence
Its better when you get it out the mud and they honor it
Need the lord to answer a prayer well really some of em
I dont play wit none of my blessings because im one of em