Journal Entry

I'm so fucking bored
I'm barely breathing anymore
There's a sign on my door
That begs the outside world to just ignore me

Why
Am I allowed to interact with strangers
How
Have I avoided grippy sock vacations

I'm so obsessed with my
Obsessive thoughts that I obsess on
My intricate impassioned words
That you will hear and then move on
Is art pathetic? Am I pathetic? Are you pathetic?
Are we all trying not to wish that we weren't here?

Writing got hard
When I was young I wrote an album in a day
But now I'm lucky if I get three lines a week
This shit's unfair, it wasn't meant to be this bad
Is it my fault or can I blame mom and dad?

Or are my exes doing less to motivate
I haven't talked to one in years, the other's great
So maybe life's been good enough, should I give up?
Would you give up?

I'm so fucking bored
I'm barely eating anymore
There's mark on my door
That begs the inside world to just stay put

Why
Am I allowed to interact with Morgan
How
Have I avoided ending up in prison

I'm so obsessed with my alarming thoughts that I can't swallow
My intricate autistic brain that's one thin hair from breaking
Is this pathetic? Am I pathetic? I am pathetic
So I'll keep trying not to pray that I wake up



Credits
Writer(s): Benjamin Kapit
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