Always Do This To Myself

Tried to find a way
But im lost inside mistakes
Why is it so hard to change?
All I feel is pain
Why wont it go away?
Feel like I tried everything
Nothing works
Now im gone and im laid up in a hearse fuck

Do this to myself all the time
Tell me that I think too much
Yeah You might be right
Devils here to kill me I won't even put up a fight
Guess I'm tired of my life for the way that I live
Maybe its a sign I should try something new
Every time I do it just seems like I lose so let me Tell you the truth about me and tell you how I feel

Feel like giving up everyday
Then I find a reason to stay
Push everyone that I love away
Took drugs for a while to relieve my pain
Had to stop taking them cuz they were fucking with my brain
I could could never find love I don't wanna feel that again but I wanna feel that again
Its the hardest to explain

Fall in love way to fast then I think about my past so it makes wanna go back to my last girl
She made me feel special
We weren't perfect but we were trying
I felt your love slowly fading away never thought I'd see the day that you'd leave
I thought forever meant forever but I must've been living in a twisted fantasy

Always do this to myself
I always fall in love with people who hurt me
I wanna mean something to someone
I fuckn hate this
Wish I could explain it
Hope I die soon I just cant take it

Tried to find a way
But Im lost inside mistakes
Why is it so hard to change?
All I feel is pain
Why wont it go away?
Feel like I tried everything
nothing works
Now Im gone and I'm laid up in a hearse fuck

This is my life do nothing to change
Really wanna die cuz this'll never fade
Running out of time I just wanna escape
Crying through the night livin in decay
Never do it right I just wanna find my way
Crawling through the light but I always see your face
And it makes me feel a type of way cuz my heart is out of place
And I lost myself along the way so I'm digging my grave



Credits
Writer(s): Adan Yebras
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