Koi Pond

I told you already
Boy I'm choking on vomit
Ready to drop it
Brains on the floor and then you finna mop it
Sorry to gruesome, I cannot stop it
Yeah, speaking the truth will take its toll
Better thank god for your life is dull
All the things that I've been told
You would be be gripping a pole
Killa, Killa, like I'm Gangsta Pat
Toss my corpse in the river, river
Won't be seeing that no more
I pulled the trigger, trigger
Aye
Wouldn't want to kid ya
Wrecked my liver liver
Got the meds killing me everyday

Each day when I wake
I make a mistake
I think I don't carry that big of a weight
Then when I make the connection I feel the nails hammering into my brain
And I feel enslaved to the desires that keep me in chains
No one coming in clutch with the save
So this never ending pain ain't gonna stop coming my way
I got a devil inside
Trying to get me to skin my own hide
And this demon be scheming and biding his time
So I try to lock him up in a cage in my mind
When I hear the whispers that come in the night
The bark in my head starts making me lash out and bite
So I worry there ain't gonna be no angels when my time arrives

I don't got the time to be wasting it like I do
I'm done with spacing out
When I'm facing doubt
Hard for me to pull through
Feel like an animal at the zoo
Caged up
The cretins spitting at me through the bars
Really ain't hard to get to know me better than on the surface level
Y'all been testing my mettle
Try to be gentle
But when I reach my limit my light side bricking
Pretty soon I'ma stop ticking
And blow up on y'all who act like I can't even talk without sinning
I'm just tryna live my life
You'll never get me to start following the Pied Piper
I can't speak out over the sound
Pretty soon y'all finna drown