Before I Said Goodbye

Here I am once again on a dark Covid night
Climbing these four walls in the dying shadow light
A lonely traveler lost in space, adrift without your warm embrace
Haunted by the frightened stare on your face when I let go of your hand
Here I am once again, turned away from your room
By nurses with wet eyes and throats as tight as mine
I begged them: Please, won't you let me stay
But all I could do was wave and pray that you
And I will find a way through this dark Covid night

I loved you from the very start
Now it's so dark I can't find my heart
I never meant for us to part before I said goodbye

Here I am once again, sick of Covid news
Pacing in the night with my fears of losing you
I turned off the TV and the radio
But my phone's still on so that the photos show
Of you holding me and never letting go, back when the world was ours

I loved you from the very start
Now it's so dark I can't find my heart
I never meant for us to part before I said goodbye

Who would ever think that I could leave you all alone
I only ask to see your face and to hold you in one last embrace

Here I am once again, clinging to each shred of hope
In memories and dreams we never shall forget
I hear the clock ticking on the kitchen wall
It echoes up and down the empty hall, keeping me awake hoping you'll still call
Like you did a thousand times before

I loved you from the very start
Now I won't let Covid tear us apart
Your love will always shine inside my heart
No matter how dark the night, your love will be my light
Your love will be my light