Early Mornings

As days go by this shit is draining
I take a look outside, it's raining
Said it's dark and i can't see nothing
So I drink a little more so I can feel something
It's like I stand in my own way
Standing still and I slowly decay
I'm stuck frozen
Unable to move like something is broken
I think I lack it, like whatever the fuck it is
Yeah, you know, like whatever the fuck it gives
I can't say what I'm feeling like
Just know that something isn't right
Asking myself, does anybody really give a damn
When they take the time to ask how I am?
So I sit alone, ain't nothing new
I hide it, they can't even tell that I'm blue

The sadness that's in my brain
It's got me going insane
No longer hitting the same
It feels like I'm stuck... stuck out in the rain

I sit alone looking at myself in the mirror
Hoping one day the vision becomes clearer
Like what's my next move, my next course of action
Too easy, I'm falling victim to distraction
It's like I take one step forward and two steps back
Like do I got it? Or is there something I lack?
They call it the it factor
But I'm lost like I'm playing the role of an actor
In a movie, and it's not even about me
Damn, how crazy would that be?
I'm unpaid and my story is delayed
Got these crooked thoughts, they invade
From my vision, instilled by the big man
I get depressed just wondering if I still can
So I gotta get it, I can't be the ugly child
Shit, my vision is reconciled

The sadness that's in my brain
It's got me going insane
No longer hitting the same
It feels like I'm stuck... stuck out in the rain