Ten Years

You've missed a lot
And I've missed you
Oh memory
Just doesn't do

I'm not the boy
You only knew
I've grown since you were sown
Emerged anew

Ten years without a good night
I still struggle drifting
When I rise I want to fall

Will's words were worth their weight
When I couldn't find my own
And everything was racing
It's only now I'm getting close

My days they quickly trickled by
My rivers dried
And only bitter salt
Was left behind

I didn't realise my mind
Wasn't on my person
Head spinning
But the world span on

My best friend took the weight
I couldn't carry by myself
No need to ask him for his help

We hid our bottles round the corner
Cause we're too young for drinking
But old enough to feel it all

I almost wish that I believed
That you were out there in the ether
Watching over me

But in my heart I think I know
There's really nothing out there
But I won't settle for despair

I feel your absence to this day
But I know I can't change it
No it was never in my hands

And if you could have stayed
I wonder who I'd have become
But I've done the best I can

Yeah if you could have stayed
I think you'd like who I've become
But you never met the man