Drowning

What I'm posed' to do now?
Can you still see my smile?
Am I making you proud?
I still remember your room being surrounded by tears
I'm surprised I didn't drown
What I'm posed' to do now?
They tellin me to be strong
They saying life moves on
But I just don't know how
I don't know.

How I'm posed' to keep going?
Tell me what you expecting
Your number still in my phone
I feel like I'm calling heaven
There still some things I don't know and you answered all my questions
How I'm not posed' to feel lost When I Feel I lost all direction
Feel you taught me every lesson
Feel this pain won't ever lessen
Now I can't help but feel less than
Then this image I'm projecting
Tryin so hard to be selfless
but I know that I'm so selfish
They ask what I want for Christmas
I just wish that you were present
Tell me that you got suggestions
I still do things you suggested
I know that you looking down but
I am too cause I been stressing
See no point I look forward
Why am I the one he testin?
I know I ain't lose my life
But part of me feel so neglected
Loved you before adolescents
Wish that you could add a lesson
How I'm posed to deal with this Cause
I know you can see I'm guessin
I just hope you really restin
wait I know I'm manifestin
Also know I love you but I don't know

What I'm posed' to do now
Can you still see my smile?
Am I making you proud?
I still remember your room being surrounded by tears
I'm surprised I didn't drown
What I'm posed to do now?
They tellin me to be strong
They saying life moves on but I just don't know how
I don't know

I'm not sure how I'm suppose to do this
I knew that I would have to go thru this
Tears constantly falling
On my pillowcase
My heart is broken and
I'm in real a sunken place
Every time I had issue
I would call you
Now that your not here
I don't know what I'm gonna do
It's kinda selfish but I want you here right now
My heart is broken
But I'm pushing thru somehow

What I'm posed to do now?
Can you still my smile?
I still remember your room being surrounded by tears
I'm surprised I didn't

What's it gonna take cause could this pain is to hard to bare
Feeling empty cause your not here
I know your at peace, but life's not fair
Cause I miss you here

What I'm posed to do now?
Can you still see my smile?
I still remember your room being surrounded by tears
I'm surprised I didn't drown
What I'm posed to do now?
They tellin me to be strong
They saying life moves on
But I just don't know how
What I'm posed to do now?
Can you still see my smile?
Am I making you proud?
I still remember your room being surrounded by tears
I'm surprised I didn't drown



Credits
Writer(s): Derrick Hayes Jr
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