Find Myself
Lately I been tryna find myself
Always seem to thrive when I'm someone else
They say originality is a sign of a G
Every night I lay awake yeah I be losing sleep
Cuz honestly
I don't know if I can say that's me
Used to have the drive
Now the tank is hitting E
Never had to struggle
And this shit ain't coming easily
So maybe that's the reason
That I feel like it's defeating me
Depreciating
Losing my value in myself
Maybe if I write how I feel then it'll help
Feeling like I don't deserve love
Or no respect
Feeling so depressed
I can't even make my bed
When I wake up
I just want to stay asleep
Don't wanna wake up
Realized I had been so weak
After the break up
Realized I was just not me
After the break up
Wrote a whole song talking bout how you were psycho
Thought about releasing it instead I took the high road
Kept it off the record like a mint condition vinyl
Don't want your friends to know about the side of you that I know
Told a couple people just to get it off my chest tho
Sometimes it ain't enough to write it down with the pencil
Tried to put herself above my music
And my next show
Had to make my feelings disappear
Like presto
Cooking up
Tryna get the green
Get the pesto
Spitting image of potential
That could be a fucking dud
Or be elite
Who knew that it'd be so hard
To be me
All my doubts living in my head
Rent free
Only one thing holding back
And it's me
Only one thing that I really wanna be
Just a cool kid that's supplying all the heat
Don't got time to be cuffed
Dropping dimes like I'm Magic
Fans going crazy
Like they in a room that's padded
301 where I'm from
Had to get it tatted
Tryna get the ball rolling
I'm tired of static
A fanatic for the rhyme schemes
Making sure my rhymes clean
So bright think I'm shining
So lost you can't find me
Blinded by a dime piece
Forgot about my dream
Tryna write a song that'll hopefully remind me
Lately all I'm tryna do is find myself
Always seem to thrive when I'm someone else
They say originality is a sign of a G
Every night I lay awake yeah I be losing sleep
Cuz honestly
I don't know if I can say that's me
Used to have the drive
Now the tank is hitting E
Never had to struggle
And this shit ain't coming easily
So maybe that's the reason
That I feel like it's defeating me
I'm losing inner battles cuz I'm always moving peacefully
I'm slowly starting not to give a fuck about the decency
I'm spending all my money on my music
I don't need to eat
I'm finally standing up to all my problems
I don't need a seat
I know that I'mma blow up
Ain't no dud
Yeah I'mma be elite
I tried to make it work
But I know you could never be with me
Cuz you in love with who I am
And not with who I need to be
Was chilling
Now I'm moving with a purpose
Moving eagerly
It's Cal
Always seem to thrive when I'm someone else
They say originality is a sign of a G
Every night I lay awake yeah I be losing sleep
Cuz honestly
I don't know if I can say that's me
Used to have the drive
Now the tank is hitting E
Never had to struggle
And this shit ain't coming easily
So maybe that's the reason
That I feel like it's defeating me
Depreciating
Losing my value in myself
Maybe if I write how I feel then it'll help
Feeling like I don't deserve love
Or no respect
Feeling so depressed
I can't even make my bed
When I wake up
I just want to stay asleep
Don't wanna wake up
Realized I had been so weak
After the break up
Realized I was just not me
After the break up
Wrote a whole song talking bout how you were psycho
Thought about releasing it instead I took the high road
Kept it off the record like a mint condition vinyl
Don't want your friends to know about the side of you that I know
Told a couple people just to get it off my chest tho
Sometimes it ain't enough to write it down with the pencil
Tried to put herself above my music
And my next show
Had to make my feelings disappear
Like presto
Cooking up
Tryna get the green
Get the pesto
Spitting image of potential
That could be a fucking dud
Or be elite
Who knew that it'd be so hard
To be me
All my doubts living in my head
Rent free
Only one thing holding back
And it's me
Only one thing that I really wanna be
Just a cool kid that's supplying all the heat
Don't got time to be cuffed
Dropping dimes like I'm Magic
Fans going crazy
Like they in a room that's padded
301 where I'm from
Had to get it tatted
Tryna get the ball rolling
I'm tired of static
A fanatic for the rhyme schemes
Making sure my rhymes clean
So bright think I'm shining
So lost you can't find me
Blinded by a dime piece
Forgot about my dream
Tryna write a song that'll hopefully remind me
Lately all I'm tryna do is find myself
Always seem to thrive when I'm someone else
They say originality is a sign of a G
Every night I lay awake yeah I be losing sleep
Cuz honestly
I don't know if I can say that's me
Used to have the drive
Now the tank is hitting E
Never had to struggle
And this shit ain't coming easily
So maybe that's the reason
That I feel like it's defeating me
I'm losing inner battles cuz I'm always moving peacefully
I'm slowly starting not to give a fuck about the decency
I'm spending all my money on my music
I don't need to eat
I'm finally standing up to all my problems
I don't need a seat
I know that I'mma blow up
Ain't no dud
Yeah I'mma be elite
I tried to make it work
But I know you could never be with me
Cuz you in love with who I am
And not with who I need to be
Was chilling
Now I'm moving with a purpose
Moving eagerly
It's Cal
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Writer(s): Cameron Lacey
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