Confessions

You watch me like you're watching a ghost
If we weren't just two platonic friends
I wouldn't have spoke
But I can't sit in the dark and
Listen when you talk
Pretending you're not the one that I want

We sit on separate sides you're careful, I'm too reckless but
I hold my knees, the sky turns navy
And we know there's no us
Because we'll wake up in the morning
And act like nothings happened
I'll do it again if it heals you

But the house is asleep, and I fill empty space with confessions
You're easy to talk to so I tell you things that I shouldn't
You know that I'm not indifferent, oh I never was and I can't be
We get close to each other, then fall back apart slowly

You held me, shut your fist around the moments we stole
If we can't be, then gradually
I forget what I'm owed
So I can't sit on the porch and
Whisper like I'm your best friend
We're telling the truth, call it secrets

But the house is asleep, and I fill empty space with confessions
You're easy to talk to so I tell you things that I shouldn't
You know that I'm not indifferent, oh I never was and I can't be
We get close to each other, then fall back apart slowly

And it pains me to talk like this
Say I'm crazy for wanting this
But you're close and it's late
So I'm not thinking like I should

I'll tell you the half of it
If we should've, we would've been
So I'm waiting for you in vain
Like a lover would