Pick Up My Feelings

I swear I had my fair share of loss
'Nuff to have me crazy when I'm all up in my thoughts
Running out of time, I got my eye up on the clock
I'm just tryna make it for my family out the block

And I know that we all tryna leave
And I know they placing all they bets on me
That's why I'm grinding every day of every week
And I'm tired, but I'm trying, and I know

I gotta pick up my feelings
I been crawling, tryna get up out the deep end
Gotta pick up my feelings
'Cause I ain't going nowhere if I'm stuck up in the deep end

I been running headless with my heart up on my sleeve
Seen too many things I shouldn't see by nineteen
Mentally the oldest in a mob in front of me
Started life a hunnid steps behind most other teams

But Imma top shit
Imma make it out and you can watch this
Buy my mom a house not on this block bish
You can watch this

'Cause Imma pick up my feelings
I been crawling, tryna get up out the deep end
Gotta pick up my feelings
'Cause I ain't going nowhere if I'm stuck up in the deep end
Imma get up out this deep end

I don't wanna talk if it ain't money talk
I don't really talk because the money talks
Don't come at me with gossip that's that dummy talk
And if you getting toxic, I ain't scared to walk

Just wanna feel the top on the low
Just want it like a dog and a bone
Gotta bless the highs, but fuck these lows
And I'm feeling tired, but I'm trying, and I know

I gotta pick up my feelings
Gotta pick up my feelings
Imma pick up my feelings
'Cause I ain't going nowhere if I'm stuck up in the deep end
Imma get up out this deep end