Abrupt Letter

Silence, could you lead
My thoughts distressed
Back to her?

So, I could gasp for air
Enough to whisper

Off script
Uneased
Let me tell you
I'm sorry

Blooming
And blushing
No brushing
Though crushing

Somewhere between the lines
Garbled
I don't recall the sunset

Incoherent thoughts
That would, with words
Help me think
That you may hear me

Pulling the sun always for you
Healing for you to break me

So, I lay down indifferent
To everything
Restless
Careless
Sleepless
Still
Can't explain myself
Will never

But for this time
I feel I might find a reason
Cohesion
Could any word
Reflect the way I feel?

I could even peel my skin
If it carried meaning
Nothing will do anyway

So, commence the shivers
Hating the air comes next
Maybe this time it'll change
Could the earth stop its motion?
I hope so

And, though I try
Still in circles

How to describe a thing
That does not exist?

Rephrasing the thoughts
I'd like to share
How could I?
And though I say I don't
I'm yearning for an answer

I'm never at ease
But here
One of many words
Feels real

Again, I'd like to see you smiling
Again, and forever, find you dreaming
Again, I'd like to feel you closer
Again, I'd like to find you distant

I'll never sunder
I'll never sunder
I'll never sunder
I'll never sunder