Crystal Mirage

So silent the song that would soothe me
And how tense thinking I could rest

Though hit the ground I keep falling
Though slept twelve hours I'm tired always
Though I can reach it I'm frustrated
Though it cannot hurt me more

Astonished
So eclipsed
How perfect
A dream

But still, I cannot tame my thoughts
I yearn to find the words
That would make you look at me
That would make you happy

Consciousness clouds me
Future scares me
Frail, uneasy
Vague and empty

Hoping my hands choke me
No room can hide my cry
Though no one would hear
Still, I try

I try
Hate the silence still
Hate the mirrors too

How now could I forget?
Sinking into my bed

I can't escape 'cause I'm not imprisoned
Though my thoughts corrupt my body
I can't explain what I cannot reason
Though with you I'm never out of reasons to try

No meaning I reach to grasp

Keep me floating restlessly
Let me tumble dearly

Back to the start
Falling apart
I'm never close
Elation never shows
I can never feel composed

Even the fear that keeps me still
Would let me rest
But I don't know how

A night consumed by the time
Oh, my aged brain
Even this body lets me free

Can't think of another way
To reach you there
But again, at least you know

A life awaits by the dawn
And might forget
Even your eyes that led me there

Counting days
Counting the stars few
Counting every night
I'm not with you

Have you seen her?
Oh, how could not?
Oh, moon, could you tell her?

Words could never paint you
How repentant
Hope you someday find
Someone who can ease your pain
But forgive I'm not

Never thought I could smile
Never thought I could fly
Oh, let the birds know your name
It's all I can think

Still, I long for the warmth of your touch
Oh, don't eclipse the sun too much
I can't help staring at you
Fall for you
Though my words remain untrue
I hope you know I do

Roses of grey
They never fade
They never stay
Oh, would they stop the waves

Plunging?
They never craved
Gracing the days when
You were there

Nothing fills me
Nothing lifts me
Nothing helps
Rain
Rain
Rain
Rain