No One's Child

I wish
There was a wish
I could call by name
And I would just call with that confidence
And my eyes had begged
The counsel of the shelves
And the shelves were overflowing
Overwhelming
I wish it all was easier
And matters not as pressing
I wish you would allow me some time
Before I see my shelf
See, I don't know much of myself
But I know this

I am songs
And lust
Some tales that may never rust
So many secrets
Within the sound
Of my name
But no one's child
No one's child

I see a table
Two chairs
And silverware
And the sign on my door would say "Heaven"
And I do not plan
No plan for the walls
Walls have their own pace
Their own voice
I wish it all was easier
And life was not as tempting
I wish I get to open that door
Had it been love
How could I tell
See, I don't know much of myself
But I know this

I am books
And love
Some conversations I'd like to have
A chance to witness
Whatever is
Through my own eyes
And no one's child