Halfway

Don't really care that I'm at an airport
Every dinner tastes like cardboard
Every song has all of the same chords

All of my clothes don't fit in the same way
Every step forward feels like a mistake
I still pretend I know what he would say, oh I

But I don't
I never will
And it's fine
But it's also really not

I'm halfway good, halfway bad
Halfway really fuckin' mad
Almost wish it would pass
Halfway kinda want it back

Halfway meetin' someone else
Halfway nothin' really helps
Me unfeel how I felt
Halfway back to myself

I'm, I'm

I used to think those nights were the hardest
Pain right there, that spot where your heart is
I didn't know I would be missin'
How good it hurt (how good it hurt)

But it's better than whatever the hell this is
Sitting alone and secretly wishing
You'll come and hurt me all over again
Maybe it's worse, maybe it's worse (maybe it's worse)

Or it's not (or it's not)
Yes, it is (yes it is)
And I'm fine (and I'm fine)
But I'm also really not

Halfway good, halfway bad
Halfway really fuckin' mad
Almost wish it would pass
Halfway kinda want it back

Halfway meetin' someone else
Halfway nothin' really helps
Me unfeel how I felt
Halfway back to myself

I'm, I'm
I, I
I-, I (I), I (I)
I (I), I (I)

I'm halfway me, halfway you
Halfway tryin' to undo
Halfway scared that I'll forget
All the good things we went through

Halfway here, halfway tryin'
To just feel like I'm not dyin'
Halfway, put you on a shelf
Halfway back to myself

I'm