Pardon Me

What is religion, this thing I believe in
2 services every weekend, new communion every season
A staple in the way I live I rarely even question
Same religion used to excuse my people oppression
Religion is the grounding and the balance that I needed
Searched for it in people but they never could complete it
Thought a man could solve the Issues in my heart that were deep seeded
But I've looked and looked around and ain't nobody do what he did
Religion set me free, but religion just keep me gostage
Is it self made boundaries that keep me in this bondage
Called for god long and still he ain't never responded
Religion my foundation, foundation I almost lost it
Rejected all the love cause I ain't think that I was worth it
The overwhelming, never-ending, don't feel I deserve it
I be in own my head thinking I didn't earn it
How you love me, why you love me, even when I'm not perfect

I can love you (I can love you)
I can love you (I can love you)
I can love you better than she can
I can love you (I can love you)
I can love you (I can love you)
I can love you better than she can

Still waiting for those things that the fake Pastors had prophesied
A Jay that's in New York but these stories I tell ain't verified
Running to my blessings so fast I almost qualified
Was still searching for the love within women that I objectified
2 kids, big house, pool, and a spouse
Fell in love with an idea that went on a different route
Feel like God stopping the rain I been in this crazy drought
I'm stuck in my father's image will I ever make it out
Introversion only take you so far I really need love
Changed myself to please everybody and ain't receive hugs
Trauma that I'm supposed to hide we sweep under the rugs
My father think I need therapy, I really need touch
I learned how to love but I gotta love at a distance
I grew up but I think that we grew apart must've missed it
Religion ain't the problem within the way I'm existing
But the love of god the only remaining thing
That's consistent and I'm saying

I can love you (I can love you) (I'm receiving your love)
I can love you (I can love you) (I'm receiving your love)
I can love you better than she can (I'm receiving your love)
I can love you (I can love you) (Yeah, I'm receiving your love)

I know that, he'll answer when i call
Where would I be Lord without presence
Grace you that show me, love never-ending
I am not alone
Yeah, I am not alone, yeah

I'm my curiosity search results is what i reflect
Lil 5 year old be who was seeing (moan) on the internet
Taught by mother, father, and something else I was hiding
Change perception of reality,cravings I stopped fighting

Real indoctrination from what I seen in those videos
(Shh) tried to bring up the subject but I would tippy toe
Couldn't see her outside the standards of broken fantasies
Intensified by stubbornness o tightrope with insanity

6th track of "ishereal", 1st track of "rodeo"
Projecting onto Juliet, a self conscious Romeo
Repeated all my sins and subconsciously I would pick up
Saying that Im done very next day I would slip up
The things that I seen still deeply scar my mentality
A product of safari, I question my sexuality
Scared to see what people think, reactions that the verse get
Tryna overcome a problem admitting it is the first step