luv starved (love sick)

I was never shown how to love
So I did my best to guess
Everything a man ever wants
A tiny girl in a dress
A trophy for his friends
(That I didn't even like, so)
Tried to learn from mistakes
I haven't made one in months
But it's getting harder to take pushing away everyone
And you just had to show up
(And you know I'm not mad about it)

Swear to God, I'ma change, but I'm agnostic
All this loneliness is getting so exhausting
Sick to my stomach, yeah, I'm feelin' kinda nauseous
And I can't tell if it's you

I'm so love starved
Knowing if I'm ready to trust you is goddamn hard
You're picking at skin and bones
I feel my lips, they'rе turning blue
Are you great or somеthing new?
I'm so love starved
(Are you actually my type or do I just need a bite?)

Is it the fact that you're there, do I actually care?
The potential of the latter's got me pulling my hair out
I'm a skeleton of the love I once had
Yeah, it was so bad but you're nothin' like that, yeah

Swear to God (ah) I'ma change, but I'm agnostic (ah)
All this loneliness (ah) is gettin' so exhausting (ah)
Sick to my stomach (ah) and I'm feelin' kinda nauseous (ah)
And I can't tell if it's you

'Cause I'm so love-starved
Knowing if I'm ready to trust you is goddamn hard
You're picking at skin and bones
I feel my lips, they're turning blue
Are you great or something new?
I'm so

I'm so love-starved
Sometimes it gets so damn hard
I'll show my skin and bones
I'm so scared to end up alone
Talk me off a cliff and go ahead and push me right off of it
I'm so scared, I'm unaware, yeah
I'm on fire, I'm a fucking liar
I'm a maniac, I always laugh when
I'm frustrated, I'm educated, unmotivated
I want love that wants me back
But I don't think that I know how to actually have
Something good staring back at me
Swear everyone always fucking leaves
When I look you in the eyes
Only wanna see lies, you, you look surprised
I hate my mind 'cause I'm so

Love starved
I'm so, ohh
Love starved