Gunpowder

I got problems in my head I'm so fucked up
And all my reasons to exist are getting farther
Don't ask me if I'm ok just makes it harder
I might hit me with some lead and gunpowder

If I put a bullet in my head, there's no undo
If I press ctrl z, I still harmed you
So yeah it's selfish I won't argue
That's why I'm stuck up in this hell I can't subdue
Every day I don't know why I get up
Just to do the same shit that made me wanna give up
Just to go to school put work in but its never enough
Just to try making a song and realize that I suck

I'm just a kid in my thoughts, yet everyone has expectations
I don't wanna move on, I'm giving in to the temptations
Lately nothing is fun, this ain't my typical depression
I'm alone in the dark, cause I don't do communication no
Oh no I think I'm losing composure
So slow the way I'm gaining exposure
Don't go too deep into the rabbit hole
It's gon' make you regret it and it might swallow you whole
And don't you try being different that shit gets outta control
Cuz you won't fit in for a minute no matter where you go
And all the suffering is infinite my patience is not
So I waste away my summers as I stay in and sulk oh

If I put a bullet in my head, there's no undo
If I press ctrl z, I still harmed you
So yeah it's selfish I won't argue
That's why I'm stuck up in this hell I can't subdue
Every day I don't know why I get up
Just to do the same shit that made me wanna give up
Just to go to school put work in but its never enough
Just to try making a song and realize that I suck

I don't see light at the end of the tunnel
Demons creeping up on me they do it so subtle
I might give up and I might run away
Questioning why I'm still here, cause I don't wanna stay
It's fucking hard to be me and aint nobody understand me
Understandably, cause aint nobody really like me
I'm an internet kid and I grew up in a country
That won't give me shit, now I'm just trying to get out it (yuh)

I got problems in my head I'm so fucked up
And all my reasons to exist are getting farther
Don't ask me if I'm ok just makes it harder
I might hit me with some lead and gunpowder



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Writer(s): Orestis Andreadakis
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