since a kid...

Waiting round all day God can you fix me up
Even though I'm stuck on my ass really ain't doing nun
My parents saw that in me when I was a kid super young
And brought the hammer down in attempts to toughen me up
Think they saw something in me that was as bright as the sun
But couldn't live up to it in trouble for stupid actions
My dad was hard on me his words would penetrate like a gun
Today I'm thankful but I won't lie he did a tad too much
That's because he saw a legend dead asleep in his son
I'll probably see the same in mine if I end up having one
But man it really was a challenge as I was aging uh
Shit let me take you back to days where I wasn't worth a crumb
It was when

I was the class clown, glasses on deck
Looked hella dorky but I cracked jokes 'stead of acing a test
I shoot my shot and I missed
I had too many crushes
And man I stood out, was too tall
Their eyes made me sick
It wasn't long turned to a bully I got tired of shit
I thought we were just messing but I caused my friends some damage
I only moved but he flinched, like what
Like boy stop tripping, wait
Oh, I'm the one who really tripping
Running drills in basketball of course I never listened
Only made the team cuz I'm big and they forced me to fit in
I ain't even try out of my volition
Every time I played I schemed 'bout how I could relinquish my position
Thinking how much longer 'till I've risen
Was a lil kid tryna break suffocating conditions I don't
Get how I'm supposed to start up my own ignition I fold
Almost like paper but got nagged by my mission

Back to waiting round
God please fix me up why I'm always feeling bound
How I panic in my seat but still don't make a sound
Why I feel so comfortable stuck in the background
Every step I took truly was a pound for pound
Never did it loud if they knew they'd try to jab me down
That's how I feel about
The ones who living fake
The ones who said I ain't nothing
Made me clear the way, but

Maybe one day
(Maybe one day)
Maybe one day I can keep up my faith
(Keep up my faith)
Maybe one day I won't have a bad taste left
(Have a bad taste)
In my mouth from emotions that were misplaced
(That were misplaced)
Like maybe one day I can be a better man
(Be a better man)
Like maybe one day you can get out my face
(Get out my face)
Like maybe one day I can figure out what's next
(Finding what's next)
In my head scared of life its never certain
(Never certain)

Look at us now Aidan
We always missed our shot now we laid up with our main lady
Keep observing you will weed out all the folks who are shady
And keep working on your talents right now that's why they all pay me
Uh
Look, look at us now Aidan
Fuck your anxiety, life is life no need to be shaky
Bet we'll still be getting better even after age eighty
We'll live our lives to the fullest surprise ourselves on the daily