BOYSDONTCRY

If boys don't cry then what am I?
A waste of space?
A waste of time?
At least I never told a lie
unless I told you that I'm fine
Some nights I want to unalive
but sometimes I can't help but try
to see the brighter side
but it'd be easier if I was a normal guy

So when I lay awake in bed
I try to clear my fucking head
but I get trapped inside instead
and face the loophole of existential dread
Wish I could run away
but it won't matter anyway
'cause when I die nothing remains
I need some pills to clear the pain
'cause I could take this all away
but then nobody would relate
to all the silent thought I have of never ending self hate.

I might
I might cry sometimes
But I will always try to stay alive
Even if it means nothing
I will take all the time I can get before my demise
So let me endure the pain
And everyone will relate
But why do I feel alone
Feel like I get so much hate
Tired of being a no one
This isn't a phase
But life feels like such a cycle
I'm trapped in a maze
Yeah, life feels like a cyclone
Been spinning for days
Feel like I'm walking a tight rope
and I'm so ashamed
of regrets
that I can't take back
Even if I tried my hardest it'll never be the same
So I'm back with a vengeance
to clear my name
Never-fucking-mind
Just forget my name
Throw me in a cage
and forget to feed me
'cause I'll die alone anyway
Don't know how I'm breathing
'cause I took a bean
plus I've been over-drinking
I got carried away.

I got carried away.