Depressive Episode, Pt. 1

Uhhh
Just came out of a long depressive low all alone
And I been pouring my heart on my phone but folks ignoring
'Cause I am dramatic more often that not
And I guess they tired of the mess I am
And yes I tried, oh yes I did, to reach out
But that don't work, so peace out
And my go to outlet to blow off the steam is through a song
And so I search deeper into my soul
But writers block will knock the door
The same day and knock you down
So with a frown, I open Spotify and I testify

I was kinda cocky in my song when I said, "Hapana mumwe angazvigone!"
'Cause when I listened to Mas' "There's Only One Throne"
Instead of listening to the message 'cause I'm going
Through the same thing
I'm seeing a ring
I'm seeing competition
I'm feeling intimidated, like I'm outdated, like I'm overrated
So that, the bad health, the crying myself to sleep
Not finding purpose, not knowing my worth
Not knowing wealth
And I peep my outdated shelf
And I'm also trynna prove that I am for keeps to that girl

Triggers an over correction
Broski let's see if I can suddenly be at the peak in a week and reach perfection
Which then brings about the name change
And cutting off the dreadlocks to a neat fade
And I'm short haired now like my momma wanted but everybody else thinks I look strange

Well it was either my hair or my wrists
And better believe I would have done the worst
Please, better feel relieved Benefit is here to say the least
You only see the beast that is slaughtering the beats and not hurting kid huh? Hah

See God has a way to reassure you when start doubting fellas
'Cause I know I'm drinking lemonade from the lemons
I'm rebranded now, and yeah, I'm still fighting demons
But when you ask me how I am yo imma still say
I'm all good
Yeah, farewell for now