Becoming

(One small step for man, One giant leap for mankind)
I became myself today
Running out of time, I chase the pain
To impress or express, I chase the hate
108 predicted I'd be this way
I chased the fame
I laid awake
Stood through the rain
While waiting to dance, I made the change
While aiming at clouds, they rained like fate
I aimed for the stars
End on the plate

I became myself today
Disrespected the stuff I make
Invalidation kills sometimes
But if I get back up, no stopping me
Bend destiny to set me free
Is it enough to just be me?
Is it enough for an enemy?
That sticks to bitter:
Neem(ay) tree

I became myself tonight
Can't believe it was rocket science
Thoughts of morality
Laws that fought in the shadows
Came to a shallow mind
The yellow hides

I'm ready this time
I'm ready to fight
I'm ready to find another shine
I'm ready to take what's mine
To take the stage
Bask in the limelight

I remember the day we met
Eyes lit up, love like a falling net
My heart was a roaming parasite
Rule 1: starstruck till the stars aligned
I found stars in your eyes
You said you found them in mine
Didn't agree, but I knew you'd never lie
Do opinions carry trust in our time?
In our time, love's taken with a grain of salt

Find me, leave a legacy
It's hard to breathe when you can't sleep
I'm scared to go to my tendencies
Won't run this time
Won't fight or freeze
Won't give in to hypocrisy
I was born to fly
Airborne disease
So I'll take flight when I'm on repeat

Intoxicated by yourself
I felt a way I never felt
It tore the pain out from my chest
I joined the rest
Among the best
I swore that I would never leave
Held up creation's reigning sleeve
Can't see half past 90 degrees
You're the remedy for what I see

And what I see
Is timelines on an empty grind
Raised for defeat and stubborn minds
Raised for no sleep and busy nights
But in the deep, we feel inside
Scared for the ones we leave behind
Scared for those living without rights
Scared of the shadows in the night
And I'm here

Ambition or love?
Ambition or fear?
I stand at the crossroads
Creeping up near
Looking at you as I hold you dear

Yearning, learning
Running on burdens
Floating through the sky with closed curtains
Carrying a lifestyle, keep me hurting
Carrying in hindsight, I'm diverting
Expectations, I'm subverting
Cultivating disconcertion
Controverting retroverting
There's something that I'm becoming

Running out of time and I'm running
Running out of time and I'm running
Running out of time and I'm running
There's something that I'm becoming

That I'm becoming
That I'm becoming
There's something that I'm-

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