The Way It Counts

I'm sour
Like whats in my glass on the counter
And I'm spinning it about an hour or at least till l I left a ring

And it was so long
Ago, you'd think I would get it wrong
Too bad it took you so long to draw this out
Did you run out of ink

And I can't remember the sound of your voice or the arrangement of freckles
And the way they fell on your face
I can't remember the waves of your hair or the shape of your mouth
Everytime you said my name

I only know that you strongly determined the way I live my life right now
I'm jealous and always obsessed so it's not a hard one to figure out
I don't get how you still control the things that come out of my mouth
If I only think of you badly, I remember you the way it counts
The way you count

And it'll take time
Each week I'm discovering a new prime
Or making myself believe a new lie
Every time something gets too tough

And I'm forgiving
You set the way I'm living
At least you've been consistent
Now that's just my dumb fucking luck

And I can't remember mixing lights and darks
At the party you were at and you
Watched me take it down like a champ
Barely remember the look on your face
But I know you were shocked
Because before I met you I never drank

I only know that you strongly determined the way I live my life right now
I'm jealous and I'm always obsessed so it's not a hard one to figure out
I don't get how you still control the things that come out of my mouth
If I only think of you badly, I remember you the way it counts

I know that I loved you but I don't know why
Cause your clouded by how many days I spent crying
I don't care what you do
Or what you tell your friends cause
I'm hyper fixated on the way that we ended things

I only know that you strongly determined the way I live my life right now
I'm jealous and I'm always obsessed so it's not a hard one to figure out
I don't get how you still control the things that come out of my mouth
If I only think of you badly, I remember you the way it counts
The way you count