mirror land

There were floors and I was finding my way through each room
When I got to the third floor, the last one
I was just faced with who I am
(The house is drowning)
And it's the thing that I am always lost in
With everything that got me so exhausted
I don't know what I'm doing
But I know where I'm going
It's a long way to Hell with the people I roll with
My friends don't want me anymore (They don't want me anymore)
And I cared until you walked through the door (The door)
Had some feelings put to rest that's for sure (Put to rest for sure)
But when everything falls there's a cure

A sober moment helps me fall back down
See things how I used to see things how
And every moment that I've spent until now
You hold the crown
I tell you, you've come around
I'll be there (I'll be there)
When you need (When you need)
When I'm gone hold your tears (Your tears)
When you tell me that the world's built around me
What a weight to carry while I'm here

I used to think about what it would be like
If you were in my life and you did things right but now
Everything is set in stone
My heart has grown cold
There's no need to find home
You won't find it over here anyways
What happened to the last one that I met face to face?
Did he abandon you?
The irony is all that I taste
Does it make you feel good about yourself?
Or are you ashamed?
'Cause when I think about it, it's you to blame
When everything in my mind is pain
I can't even find myself anymore
Abandonment issues and novacaine
Everything that's wrong with my brain
I just wanna die on the living room floor

On and off I feel differently about this person
But usually I just come to my senses, eventually
And when thinking about it
I um
I think I put too much time and effort into think about them
I need them to be gone