Dose of Cigarettes

Overthinking
Can't stop questioning
Why did it go like that
Why can't it go right back

I've been trapped in my mind
For a very long time
When is it all gonna end
Is it all gonna end

And the weight of the world
Is no skin off my back
Why do I try so hard
I try so hard

And if it's all going well
Nothing to worry about
Why am I asking now
Why am I asking now

Tonight
When angels fly
I've had my dose of cigarettes
I know that I'm not finished yet

I try
To clear my mind
Of all the painful memories
These songs they are the remedy

Afraid
I'm not sure what they'd say
If they really knew me
But they never really knew me

Ashamed
To call out your name
What I'm afraid of
Tell me, why am I afraid

Was it all just pretend
Used to look up to them
I guess we all make mistakes
We all make mistakes

Now I'm staring at my ceiling
Screaming the way that I am feeling
Can I feel better now
Can I feel better now

Tonight
When angels fly
I've had my dose of cigarettes
I know that I'm not finished yet

I try
To clear my mind
Of all the painful memories
These songs they are the remedy

A fear
Of being here
My heart so full of emptiness
A life where I've done nothing yet

And I
I ask You why
And as the tears begin to fall
I finally feel Your arms