shadow

I have this fear that my past mistakes are coming to haunt me
And can't shake the feeling that all my friends don't really want me
I can't tell the difference between my intuition or my crippling anxiety
People always leaving, I've got used to disappearing, maybe that'd be good for me

'Cause no one really gets me
I've spent half a life pretending
I formed meaningful connections
I'm a master at deception

I'm a shadow
I'm a shadow

I don't get attached anymore cause I've grown to learn the pattern
The strangers I recognize are all of the ones that mattered
Going to sleep haunted and waking up exhausted with thoughts racing through my head
Some days I consider forgetting what's familiar and never getting out of bed

No one really knows me
Their opinions still control me
I'm a victim of myself
Think I really need some help

I'm a shadow
I'm a shadow
I'm a shadow
And you'd never know
'Cause I come and go

I'm black and white like my thinking
I was the place I was needing
But I couldn't give myself peace and
Had to go destroy every feeling
Keep breathing
Keep breathing
Keep breathing
Keep breathing
Keep breathing

I'm a shadow
I'm a shadow
I'm a shadow
And you'd never know
'Cause I come and go