Hornets Nest

I down ignorance chased with bliss
A blacked out, chewed up son of a bitch
Up the creek but refused a paddle
And hungry for more; the last call's a death rattle
I'll die before my habits do
Then carry on, what else is new?
Shut the door on a life estranged
I've been given an out but I'll never change

Now please, have I made it loud and clear?
I'm a weathered soul, with an ill will to match
And I feel so much but I want to be numb
Yeah, I want to be numb
So please, let me fall apart on your watch
And extinguish the light at the source

Even after the sympathy's spent
I just can't stop kicking the hornets nest
All I hear is the same old shit
"Don't change a thing?" go fuck yourself

I've been deafeaned, exhausted, depleted
As it ended, the cycle repeated
This all seems like a raw deal to me
But the downward spiral's still gaining speed

So please, have I made it loud and clear?
I'm a weathered soul, with the ill will to match
And I need it bad but the sun won't come out
Yeah, the sun won't come out
So please, let me fall apart on your watch
And extinguish the light at the source

The hornets nest
Is on the ground
I'm sitting here
Without a care
Self destruction is all I have