You Took Everything

It all comes back to this
Let's start at the beginning

The first thing you took
Away was my breath
Everything that followed
Was under your hex
I'd just left my ex
Was onto the next
They say unexpected can lead to the best
But I'd disagree
Was way more to me
I waited for good
But, you gave me ugly
Vulnerable and weak
And I didn't see
Through all the white lies
That would hang when you speak

Next was attention
Which lead to my time
My feelings were poems
We lived every line
At night I would cry
But, mornings were fine
They told me my crushes
Would never define me
But here all this was
I hoped I was enough
Thought that through all the chaos
That this could be love
I stared at the sun
Thought you were the one
But counting your corpses
Was so far from fun

You took everything from me

Took many second chances
Five thousand and two
I thought I could fix you
I used all my glue
Not much I wouldn't do
To fade out all your blues
Though I was the painter
I had not one clue
Was painting my demise
A part of me died
Would ignore the lows
Cuz I loved all the highs
My friends all would try
They'd strongly advise
That below all the beauty
He wore a disguise

But, muted their words
When I gave you my body
And then once you tainted me
You got more cocky
Cuz no one could stop me
I sorted your laundry
The dirtiest things
Wouldn't dream of me swapping
My morals for yours
That I was unsure of
They all left my mind
When I was on all fours
After my first time
Cut me out with your sword
That time was the only
You slammed shut that door

You took everything from me

It wasn't that long
Before i was replaced
With a woman like me
Was a slap in the face
The smile I faked
Took her to second base
Those days doing lines
Had me bent out of shape
Didn't talk for a month
That should have been the end
I got my apartment
For myself I'd fend
But you flocked to my doorstep
On me you'd depend
Wish i knew what was coming
How it would descend

You co signed my lease
Gave you another piece
And each day I would
Feel closer to defeat
You'd iron me down
To get rid of my creases
Was worn down to shreds
I longed for release cuz
You'd barely look at me
Was honestly a mockery
You'd never claim me
But, called me your property
Touched other men
Cuz my heart was in poverty
Then faced your neglect
Because you held monopoly

You took everything from me

Finally sent you packing
My loved ones were clapping
Told me they're proud
For how I was subtracting
I found a new man
They were thrilled by me adding
But my neck was still open
You still kept on grabbing
Until I found my voice
Then I moved to your void
Cuz now I won't sit there
Won't take and enjoy
You severed that bloodstream
No longer conjoined
If you cannot leech
Then you want me destroyed

You then tried to scare me
Berate me with threats
You'd gut me like ripping
The tape from cassettes
Was under your shoe
Like a smoked cigarette
Attacked me with words
Thinking you'd make me sweat
Broke up with my boyfriend
Became a recluse
Wouldn't leave my house
I gave every excuse
Couldn't process the extents
Of all the abuse
So I'd stay up each night
Tying untying nooses

Cuz you took everything from me

I won't sugar coat shit
I felt way less than nothing
I got far too good
About hiding cards, bluffing
How I was never sober
Kept my head from buzzing
If my thoughts were too loud
No stitch would stop the blood from running
Cascading down my hands
Or would spurt from my throat
Take every pill in this house
Drink till vomit would choke me
Or show up at your place
Your demons provoked
And I'd swallow your bullets
At least that much you owed me

Owed me
Owed me
Owed me
Owed me

But, instead I've been working
Cutting myself slack
And even though there's some nights
That I fly off the tracks
I'm at the point now
Where I've made me a pact
I'll be six feet deep
Before I'd ever take you back
Fuck the forgiveness step
I'll never wish you well
I hope your same new old girlfriend
Breaks out of your spell
And I could break the news
But, I don't think that I'll tell
Cuz you're now in my rear view
I don't have time to dwell

I'll put down the pen
Though I could write for years
You took everything
But, I'm still here