Stuck In My Ways

Streets made a nigga
Plenty people tried to save me
Don't get no love for being real
I done gave my all got betrayed
I wasn't stacking change
The sun caught a lil shade and it got rainy
But that's just a phase
I been stuck inside my ways ain't seeing me changing

Say I pop perkys back to back too much shit been driving me crazy
Plus I can barely close my eyes
When I try to sleep I see Satan
And he talking to me
All the shit that he offer to me I can't even take it
Say he'll make me rich and famous but my soul I gotta trade it
Then I hop up out my sleep sweat on top the sheets plus i'm shaking
Tend to pour a lot of lean
Ima sit in poverty fo' this shit take me
Shit like phlebotomy
They got blood up outta me once they had snaked me
As I sit inside the dark I can feel the walls go to caving

This shit closing in on me
Some of my closest friends jocing
Answer when they phoning in on me
Cause I know that they pen lonely
I ain't wrote em not one time and I know they depend on it
Too much shit been on my mind understand that we men only

It get worse they call
Trynna make this burden fall that's on my shoulder
Ima save us all
All I got is words and balls when this shit over
This a deserted house
For help I was blurting out they did me bogus
And when that verdict fall
I just hope you make it out or you get closure

I was handing out my money to people who did me in
When they calling up my phone they ain't asking me how it's been
They just asking me for favors and how much dough i'ma spend
This shit crazy I got family that barely even know my kid
I seen em cry from what they hearing
Still wear my gun on side of me and my heart on top my skin
Can't control your curiosity it's gone cost you in the end
It's a opp inside that Grabba Leaf contact boosting up my 10
This shit hard once you get in
It ain't no turning back
And my trust ain't no earning that no time again
Right now I'm learning that
This love like a burning match inside a bin
Wish I could bring the buried back
I done lost too many my friends
On side my Unc where he buried at
I'll be safe my body be cleansed

Got so much shit that I can't talk about
And it's taking a toll on me
I gave em love these bitches tossed it out
Til a nigga went cold on em
Now from my heart I been trynna lock em out
You gotta put in a code on it
Play in that blood til you can't wash it out
And that shit leave a soul on ya
Or til it leave a stain inside of yo clothes and they mold on ya
Trynna alleviate this pain I been boosting my dose on it
They ain't appreciate a thing that I came and bestowed on em
Started switching up my lanes went to changing the roads on em

Only outcome in this death or jail
Heaven or Hell
I kiss my bible and vow to never tell I guess that make me real
I can't live a lie on the day I see you try
That's the day we both prevail
Like a waiter I take what I dish out
Every plate I got that bitch been filled
Trynna calm my nerves down Ima push the words out
First ima take a pill
My heart got burned down my shit don't even work now
I been hurt til I can't feel
I done cried so many times that I see blood when I drop tears
You draw yo sword and you get met with force this the way a nigga live

I had to learn that this shit action and reaction
I can't lie they did me badly
I guess I ain't meant to be happy
Perhaps this how it got planned
You know the truth in every tale you tell every story don't end sadly
From the streets they tried to save me they couldn't grab me

For real