luvmeback

Met this girl in my class she was classy with personality
At first we were just friends until I was after her but sadly
She wasn't after me and damn she had a bf
And I still had a crush on her even despite all she said
She- clearly told me I was nothing but a friend
I- never stated I need more in the end
And thinking back to it I don't regret it never had a chance
I was a piece of shit back then and still am barely passable
Since then I never had a crush again
Guess my Pavlov's dog brain got hurt by love and finally learned uhuh
This shit is fire get too close and you'll get burnt
Shit is not for me I know that if I try I'm going to get curved uhuh
Raise your hand if you never confessed your love
But you don't actually know what you're scared of (I know)
Never really even tried in the end
(But I)
But I know damn well

That she doesn't love me back
Tough luck I ain't going to act whack
But you know that I still feel the pain
Lowkey I want to blow out my brain
But if I do then what the fuck do I gain
That's right nothing
Gotta move on and shit, nah I'm really bluffing
Ain't that guy yeah I'm not all I told you, shit my heart is a mess
I get attached like stupid easy every time its a miss

I made seasons to diss a girl I never been with
In fact I never been with, a girl yet I'm making this
And it's all fake
All of it is made up
And that one single line of flirting even that was played up
I Swear I'm down bad
Yet I'm laid back
I ain't making moves or nothing
I just hope to get luck
Well knowing me that ain't gon' happen scared ill die alone
Won't pick up the phone who knows how long I gotta dial on
And even 'fore I fall in love I know it's one sided
Never had a glimmer of hope and my fucking heart's dying
Corriding like some fucking plastic after hundred years
I act like I'm just ok but really got a hundred fears
If I were like other peers
I'd just drink a hundred beers
I don't like the taste but act superior like its discipline
I bet you my ass I'd be a junkie in a minute
If I didn't hate the flavor so do me a favor please and just shut up
Talking to myself like that's a bad habit
Self-hatred subsided even so I'm still fighting
Too self-aware for my own good
Wish I didn't mind my own business yet again I wouldn't be writing
I'm empty I haven't loved or been loved in too long
I'm at that age where I'm finding out that all I thought was wrong
I thought relationships are stupid at my age and now I'm cringing
Hell, maybe in a few years I will do the same at this shit yuh
Met her recently and all I knew is she had decency
But when I got to know her I realized she was a piece of me
The one that I'd been looking for my whole life
Hurts me more than ever knowing we won't be together feasibly
Love her more than anything I've ever fucking held dear too
I spend mornings, nights, evenings thinking how much I fear to
Say what I feel and put some distance between us cause if my
Crushes were just that so far then this love it is true
I wanna right all her wrongs
Fix all her problems
Hold her close and never let go
I'm being honest
And all the shit that you've been through
It hurts me deeply that I couldn't fix you
Instantly like there was no issue
And when I'm told about the way your parents treat you
I wish I could've raised you
I wish I could've been you and you been me
So you don't have to go through all that mean shit
You don't need me but tell me is it toxic that I feel this

But she doesn't love me back
Tough luck I ain't going to act whack
But you know that I still feel the pain
Lowkey I want to blow out my brain
But if I do then what the fuck do I gain
That's right nothing
Gotta move on and shit, nah I'm really bluffing
Ain't that guy yeah I'm not all I told you, shit my heart is a mess
I get attached like stupid easy every time its a miss