Toxic

(It's not all pure)

Ok I know it's toxic that I feel like this
But I cannot just change the way I feel so I just hope that you don't hate me for it
We really have a friendship that is worth maintaining and I know it's not gonna be more
But I am genuinely thankful for it
Best thing I have ever lived
More than I have ever dreamt
Closest texts to the character limit that I've ever sent
I love to stay up way too late to talk to you
But lately I'm doing it out of fear that its the last I'll get a hold of you
You're exactly what I need
The type of person if you told me they exist then I would struggle to believe
I care for you in ways you struggle to receive u do the same for me
But if this is just friendship to you then what does that say for me?
I'm sorry to my friends that I've been questioning
But nothing's quite the same as her and neither has it ever been
We both hate how everybody assumed we were dating just cause we talk
I'm sorry I can't prove a point and just see you as a friend cause I don't

I'm sorry I couldn't just prove them wrong like I wish I could
Sorry I haven't been just a guy friend like you wish I would
Sorry I lean on you I just feel with you I am secure
And you would be the last on earth to still accept me when I'm misunderstood
I'm sorry that couldn't prove society wrong
I'm sorry that I'm writing this song
I know I put you on the spot but u said it'd be alright so I just hope this doesn't fuck us up for long
I'm not expecting yes or no I know

Ok I'm sorry that I'm making this
Not sorry that I love you but I'm sorry I'm confessing it
Know ur life's already hard and so I'm sorry that I'm stressing it
Know you built this friendship step by step and so I'm sorry that I'm messing it up
You never wanted this I'm giving it up
And I won't lie about my heart lowkey it's breaking in half
But please don't blame yourself you ain't really do nothing hurtful
Directly I am pretty sure it's just the nature of love (nature of love)
Spent a couple days in my head that shit was unspoken
I've been spending days in my bed and in my FL
Printing tracks continually but I ain't F12
Finally you hear this so that means that I can rest well
As I said I hope that you don't hate me for what I say
I need emotional support but you do too this shit was brave of me
But I'm leaning on so you heavily
I'm sorry for all the weight and shit
I'm just praying that you can bear with me
Stay with me



Credits
Writer(s): Orestis Andreadakis
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