Never Before

Never before did I have trouble sleeping
With myself being the reason
How can my head be so crowded
All at the same time, everything happened
I, I hate to admit it
But anxiety's livid
How am I supposed to do it again
Never before did I want to scream in the morning
At the day ahead, procrastinating
Oh my work, my love, my life
Kept saying the wrong thing at the wrong time
I, I have a tendency to drive everyone around me away
Push them hard with egotistical traits
Let my melancholia ricochet
I remembered when I had worn my heart like a diamond crest
But now I'm a broken mess, oh

I can't believe that this is how it ends
My dreams are crushed 'fore I begin
Perhaps I'm a masochist
How else can you explain this
I chose a path that has one main
The rest are narrow thorn-full lanes
But now it too has burning flames
Like never before

Never before did I not have faith in myself
Or anybody else
Expectations lead to disappointments
Don't build me up so I won't get hurt
Or be let down, as cruel as it sounds
But it's true
I have nothing to lose but my crown
I remember when I had believed in my own competence
But that was stupid blind confidence

I can't believe that this is how it ends
My dreams are crushed 'fore I begin
I must be a masochist
How else can you explain this
I chose a path that has one main
The rest are narrow thorn-full lanes
But now it too has burning flames
Like never before

Never before did I have thoughts like this
Now I do, now I do
Never before did I write songs like this
Now I do, now I do

I can't just sit and let it be the end
My dreams, I only just began
Yeah I'm a masochist
But what's wrong with it
I chose a path of glaring flames
So now I'll follow through my way
One day I'll rise up from the ashes
Like never before
I'll do it a thousand times more
Like never before