Trust Nobody (feat. Aylius)

I really don't trust nobody
In this cold world, I'm sorry
I wish I could trust you
When you say you'll always be there for me
Cause sometimes it gets so lonely
Running from everybody
So many times burned, it's just not worth it
I don't trust nobody

Yeah, these last few months got me feeling different
Woman and weed, my newest addiction
Run from the truth, though I'm low on my fitness
So hard to speak, but I need you to listen
God is my witness, don't think he proud
He feeling indifferent, watching me now
Seeing the distance I put between everyone else and myself
I'm spiralling down
Don't wanna be vain but I'm finding it hard
When my blood's leaking out of the scars in my heart
When the people who's closest have tore it apart
Tell me what makes you think I could trust in love?
Yeah, what makes you think I could trust in love?
Honest to god, feel life is too much
No green in my paddock, I'm keeping it blunt
Can't burn all my trauma, I'm missing my spark
Look
In a state of catharsis, letting you know
My life in reverse, been going too slow
While climbing this hill
Been losing my hope
Look
If I tell you I'm fine, I don't want you to know
Don't think that I'm lying to put on a show
When it's me against me

I really don't trust nobody
In this cold world, I'm sorry
I wish I could trust you
When you say you'll always be there for me
Cause sometimes it gets so lonely
Running from everybody
So many times burned, it's just not worth it
I don't trust nobody

Who I've become, it wasn't by choice
Can't handle the smoke, yet I'm tokin' a joint
I'm choking, I know it's distorting my voice
I realise now that I fell in the void
That's my uncomfortable truth
Don't believe it even though I'm seeing the proof
Something inside me's controlling my moods
And dictating every direction I move
I feel it the most when I'm lost in my fears
It tells me "don't let anyone near
If they knew pain you've been holding for years
They'll cause you the same and they'll leave you in tears"
See a glimpse of my errors, hope I can atone
For this entity pulling me far from my goals
It's speaks in a tone that's just like my own
The difference though is it's lacking the soul
I feel a disconnect, the energy of good and evil
Ones the being that I am, the other ones my ego
I guess we look the same, the latter looks a little scared
I asked him why
He said "I'm only happy when I'm in your head"

I really don't trust nobody
In this cold world, I'm sorry
I wish I could trust you
When you say you'll always be there for me
Cause sometimes it gets so lonely
Running from everybody
So many times burned, it's just not worth it
I don't trust nobody

I don't trust nobody