Inner Death

I remember the time when my insides died
The time when your tears dripped like blood
And you lost your eyes
I remember the time when my fears rised
Becoming reality, catastrophe
Reducing our home down to the concrete
I remember when I stole your eyes
Causing you to question me
Surely doubting my loyalty
I was shy
But you took my fear to hold your hand
As a reason to believe a lie
A lie invented from the fear inside your mind
Telling you falsely that you can't be loved on the inside

So my heart became jade
And I do know why
Two lovers quarrel and cut
With emotional knives
Our bodies live, but our insides die
Our bodies resist, but we believe the lie
So my heart became jade
And I do know why
Two lovers quarrel and cut
With emotional knives
Our bodies live, but our insides die
Our bodies resist, but we believe the lie

I remember the time when my insides died
The thoughts are creeping in
When will she leave again
I remember the time when our fears rised
I became domineering
So you became powerful too
Spreading your legs to let two other men inside you
Your father's fault because he never truly loved you
But still did more than a mother who quickly left you
You made me your god, and that's where I failed you

So my heart became jade
And I do know why
Two lovers quarrel and cut
With emotional knives
Our bodies live, but our insides die
Our bodies resist, but we believe the lie
So my heart became jade
And I do know why
Two lovers quarrel and cut
With emotional knives
Our bodies live, but our insides die
Our bodies resist, but we believe the lie