Aware

Yeah
Second guessing what I used to say
Throwing words in your face, apologizing late
I'm recognizing my mistakes, I laid waste to a beautiful landscape
Filled with red roses and purple lakes
My back broken from carrying boulders of thoughts
That got me pumping up my neck and shoulders
'Cause good enough needs to be riding a Benz
Otherwise you're only worth if you got cash to present and make amends
'Cause God is listening and watching all the time
Hit my line, if you're ready to give quarters for a dime
'Cause I would rather have you stuntin' on them hoes
Before I buy myself some Gucci Clothes
I'd do the most and risk it all once more
Get to know your claws and your flaws once more
Get to know your tears and your fears once more
And let you break my heart, leave a scar once more
Yeah
Yeah
I'm taking your advice
I don't need you to be happy with my life
I don't need a woman by my side, who appreciates my smile
And gives me reasons to enjoy I'm living life
Right?
The fuck do you mean
Walking out the door, now you don't want me to leave
Make up your mind, you're not just playing with me
You're playing with every other girl that after you I'm going to meet
And sleep with, get deep with
Or even have a dream with, then cheat with
Who's to blame?
The girl who's aware or the guy that ain't
I'm having trouble with fate
If this is destined to be, I'm finna break
And I don't want to have to start to hate what we had
And I don't want to have to walk around the place you stay
Just to get out the way
Backs get turned, nights get disturbed, lines start to blur
What is good and what hurts
Toxic is a word, getting thrown around the curve
Put my body on the curb
Who does really not deserve
Is it the ego telling me that you keep faking
When you're saying that I'm special
Or are the signs that are telling me to leave
Too many not to question?