All or Nothing

I've been
Through this so many times
Whenever you return back to the start
Oh, it's nothing new, still it just breaks your heart

Painful
Every time I stop to fight
I can't help but feel like I've let them down
I'd be disappointed if I watched me drown

I've had time to get to know both sides
They drag me like the moon controls the tides
I switch them 'cause they never seem to intercept

It's always all or nothing
White or jet black
Change or still the same
Feels either sweet or painful
Top or bottom
New or in the past

I've tried
To let go so many times
But what I leave behind comes back again
Yeah, I run around in circles, there's no end

Help me
'Cause I don't wanna feel this way
If anyone knows where to find a cure
Please tell me 'cause for me it's still obscure

I wanna find a balance in this mess
It's only ever ending in distress
But there never seems to be no in between

It's always all or nothing (Nothing)
White or jet black (Jet black)
Changes or still the same (Yeah, still same)
Feels either sweet or painful (Painful)
Top or bottom (Bottom)
New or in the past, yeah

You're the only one who understands
What I really think when I pretend
It's the first time I don't feel it's a dead end
Yeah, you got my back, baby, that's why I know
Someday I'm gonna find a way
Someday I'm gonna find a way
I know I'm gonna find a way
Someday I'm gonna find a way

Mmh, mmh, mmh

Well-known
I'm right where I began
Whenever I return back to the start
I still play it cool, but it just breaks my heart