Crash Landing

I wanna walk away from this knowing that I did my best
And every ex I've ever missed is now a hot fuckin' mess
Yeah, my heart is full of spite, but my head's in the right place
I'm not desperate for a sign, but I'll count some crows today

If twelve is fulfillment, then what is thirteen?
Twenty-three's a lot like seventeen, but not
Thirty-three, he's not for me
And so I hate anniversaries

But lessons have been learned, though it's a loose understanding
I'm still too busy self-reprimanding
I might need a hand on the comedown, I'm crash-landing
What a time to notice you're alive

I wanna walk away from this with my parachute intact
I'll probably sprain my wrist, but I know time can heal that fast
Yeah, the years are flying by, it's like my soul has sprouted wings
They start to beat each time I cry, and yet I'm still falling

And if twelve is fulfillment, completion's thirteen
I thought I'd be so far away by now, but I am not
New beginnings just out of reach
And so I hate uncertainty

But lessons have been learned, though it's a loose understanding
I'm still too busy self-reprimanding
I might need a hand on the comedown, I'm crash-landing
What a time to notice you're alive

I'm wondering why I don't tell stories at parties
I'm always the one listening
Don't I know how to paint a picture perfectly?
I woke up, the alligator's dead
Count up all the bad days that I've had
How do you organize the thoughts racing in your head?
Ooo, I'm undone
With thoughts unsung
Ooo, I'm coming undone
Yeah, yeah

But lessons have been learned, though it's a loose understanding
I'm still too busy self-reprimanding
And I might need a hand on the comedown, I'm crash-landing
What a time to notice you're alive