Six Finger Handshake, Pt. 1

I remember
I wanted to tell you, "I love you," when I told you, "I like you"
You said we could meet up again, up in Athens over the summer
I remember
I wanted to tell you when you sat in the back of that philosophy class
But I couldn't bring myself to do it
Because those three damn words ended my last three relationships

So now we sit in the botanical gardens
Waiting for the flowers to give me the oxygen
To filter my lungs
And go to my brain
To give me the thoughts
To ration the heart to ask you now

I wanna give you a six finger handshake
Not around your hand, but your body, if that makes sense
I just want to see what we can make
And if we can draw the most out from the less
I wanna be friends
I wanna be more than friends
I wanna be brothers
I wanna be your significant other
Or maybe something more specific than that
I want you to mold me however to your heart's content
So I can be the clay on top of your pedestal
And you can be my Patrick Swayze
Though I know you don't get that reference yet
(But soon you will)

I was stuck in a hospital in Valdosta for twelve whole days
I would've gotten out of there sooner if my
Doc wasn't so fixated on drugging me up
Instead of realizing what Asperger's was
I left there with more problems than I came in with

You called me the day right after I got out
You had so much concern in your voice
Turns out that was just the way you talked
But in that moment you were also expressing concern

My tongue and lips were all swollen
And my body would just constantly stiffen
Turns out, that was just a common reaction
To the medication I blame it on the misdiagnosis, but oh well
Oh well

I remember
I was on the verge of slurring all my words out in Blackbird's
But you knew to be patient!
And I appreciate you for that
I appreciate you for a lot of other reasons
But that is the one to which I will always return

I wanna give you a six finger handshake
Not around your hand but your bodice! If that makes sense
I wanna give unto you more than I take
Because you're a person deserving of that kind of love
I wanna show you the world
I wanna show the world you
I wanna give you it all
I wanna give you what's due
Because your rabbit-like anxiety has haunted you for far too long
You see the universe in amazing detail
Perhaps a little too outstanding for you to handle
But that's okay because I'll there to pick you up no matter what

And I know we have issues of our own
But we can work on them
And get better together
Together forever
Forever unsevered
And I know not everything's set in stone
But we can do that when we're dead
Because right now we're fluid
And we don't care that our bones tell us otherwise
As long as we're together
I'm certain we'll make it to the other side
I know that you're scared
But I'll be there to protect you every time

I wanna give you a six finger handshake
Well it doesn't even need to make sense to us anymore
We can dance to communicate and leave all our languages at the door
We can make our own music, kudzu leaves all on the floor
We can build our world, and still have things left to explore