Conversations With My Therapist

I'll hold my breath 'til I turn blue
And cry an ocean in my room
Overanalyze the meaning
Between the words, I'm reading
I'm just as scared at 22
As 12 years old, back at school
Consumed by all my feelings
Couldn't figure out the reasons

I laid my head down on the couch
Velvet pink, am I safe now?
Scared to say it all out loud

What if the sky falls down?
What if I never make it out?
It isn't up to me, but it's my reality
What if time passes by?
What if true love is all a lie?
Hope one day this will be
Just shit I talked about in therapy

I always look for exit signs
In case I have to run and hide
And I fall in love too easy
Why am I surprised they leave me?
'Cause I'm a perfectionist
Not saying I'm competitive
But if being scared was the Olympics
I'd be a gold medalist

I laid my head down on the couch
Velvet pink, am I safe now?
Please don't make me say it out loud

What if the sky falls down?
What if I never make it out?
It isn't up to me, but it's my reality
What if time passes by?
What if true love is all a lie?
Hope one day this will be
Just shit I talked about in therapy

And I hate that I think like this
And you'll say I'm just a pessimist
I wanna know what normal feels like

What if the sky falls down?
What if I never make it out?
It isn't up to me, but it's my reality
What if I can't move on?
What if I was right all along?
See you same time next week
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