huMANURE

I was that kid in gym class
That every other kid would laugh at
Every time I would fib to skip laps
I would always get hit with "fat ass"

But little did they know, I would never go
Not cause I was lazy, cause I knew that I would run it slow
So either way that you could look at it
They would pick on me, so why would I sweat in my clothes?

These fuckin' hand me downs, middle school thrift shop drip
Lord only knows, your boy was standing out, was a misfit off rip

Not like I chose, to look how I looked
Or every fatty dinner my mama cooked
Or all the music I was introduced to while
Y'all had your faces stuck up in them books, huh?

Not like I didn't wanna study
But I ain't really have nobody
I mean who could be friends with the chubby weird kid
With long hair and looks all bummy?

So I'd watch the clock, 'till I could
Ride the bus, right out that bitch
I'd unlock the lock, take a breath
Take a step, inside and shit
My mama is drunk again
It's only 4 PM
Bitchin' at dad in the kitchen
Throwing insults at him

Damnit I try to pretend, I run up the stairs and go hide in my room
I could not wait to grow up and move out. Shit if I only knew huh?

Love to kick me when I'm down
Then laugh like a clown
Here, how does this sound, bitch?
(Fuck you all)

I've been kicked to the curb
Over shit that's absurd
When it comes to the words I want
(None at all)

They treat me like
Humanure

Teenage years, ain't no respect from my peers
My own reflection in mirrors, something, I wish I could clear

Always regarded weird, wanted to disappear
Arguing with Ma constantly, conquered me, lived in fear

Before I could grow a beard, I learned how I could yearn
A cold and quiet death, but yet, they weren't concerned

Troubled and fucking burned, struggling and returned
To suffering by myself, the silence fucking hurt

I felt like i was just cursed. So I just waited to grow up
Eighteen came and went alone in my room, and holed up
Entered into my twenties, it's funny, cause fuckin' sho nuff
My mental only devolved, my psyche was fuckin' toe up

How the fuck did I go, from someone who was outside
To afraid to leave the house? I'd just stay indoors and hide
Contemplating suicide, push my hobbies to the side
I started thinking it would be easier if I just died, nah

Love to kick me when I'm down
Then laugh like a clown
Here, how does this sound, bitch?
(Fuck you all)

I've been kicked to the curb
Over shit that's absurd
When it comes to the words I want
(None at all)

They treat me like
Humanure

Man man, fuck all that shit, sing this shit loud!

We don't walk alone

It's time to open my chest
I have been trying my best
My brain is sabotaging me
But I cannot be silenced
Afraid to fail is my guess
Afraid of facing my death
I'm not sure I'd be singing lyrics
If it weren't for my meds

This is the fucking anthem, for those who were held at ransom
We were told we'd never be enough, so we fuckin masked it
So fuck you fucking bastards
So jealous of what we have
Remember when you're passing glances

We don't walk alone

They treat us like
Humanure

We don't walk alone