in my head

Tell me why, I still got you on my mind
Day and night, I need a reason
To forget, that you live without regret
As all in my head, it's not that easy

It's kinda funny how you talkin all that shit still
I know I'm deep inside your brain just like an Advil
I gotta keep it mad real for my sanity
Doin what I can to avoid this calamity
I am what I am, give a fuck if you can't stand me
The name's Pats, I'm dunkin' on 'em, Mark Camby
Doin' what I can to upgrade from the Camry
Sacrifice it all to give it back to my family
Everybody knows I care too much
I'm always in my head, yeah that is my crutch
Always overthinkin bout such and such
Am I enough? Can you tell me the truth
We lackin transparency, I'm tired of feelin used
I know you only love me when we're drownin in the booze
If I were you I would hate me too
I fucked up again, everything they said was true

Tell me why, I still got you on my mind
Day and night, I need a reason
To forget, that you live without regret
As all in my head, it's not that easy

Thought that you would be my only one forever
Now that's all left is memories and pictures
Drownin in emotions that I never showed ya
But you'd never know with how I'm frontin' on ya
You're still in my head and still in some stress
Know I never learned to love you, lacked the will to express
I ain't got no time for no text or no call so
Why'd I drag you on in neglect
Sick of my excuses
You know what the truth is
Rather argue than tell you that I'm toothless
Tryna hammer through all the blues but it's useless
How I'm tamin you for the shit that I'm doin
I made my own bed, imma lay on it
You still in my head, let me pray on it
Partly my fault, gotta be honest
Took a tough walk to get way beyond this

Tell me why, I still got you on my mind
Day and night, I need a reason
To forget, that you live without regret
As all in my head, it's not that easy

I'm ravenous with this you don't know what my passion is
As for it its magnetic at a glance you would say its cancerous
Man im sick people say im a basketcase
I blabber say shit to myself everyday to find the baddest way to
Be the man that brake the records
A peter pan that'll stay forever
By leaving them with all of my efforts
The evilest that's insanely better
Then a motherfucker that's gunnin straight to take my spot
I'm gonna be the best to make as a guest till my name will never rot
"Dog you wanna party?" Nah homie imma pass
"Theres alot of fucking hotties?" But i'm working on my craft
"Wanna pause and sip Bacardi?" man im working on my craft
"Daddy fuck my body!" Bitch i'm working on my craft
Yea i'm working on my craft focused and hoping that ill blast
Outta this bogus home i'm at at that got me broken and all sad
So my nose is to the pad forming the dopest set of raps
So that the goats will notice that
I'm that dopest and coldest cat (yeah)

Tell me why, I still got you on my mind
Day and night, I need a reason
To forget, that you live without regret
As all in my head, it's not that easy