I Am Worse Than a Drug

I stopped drinking at 29
Self-help screaming that I'd be fine
Is this really the greener side?
Or slowly dying sober

I told a shrink this week
Inadequacy forced me to believe
When you drink you don't love me
I am worse than a drug

Sitting with feelings
More sleep, less food
It won't fix me
If you drink you will leave
I'm unworthy

I'll plead desperately
Can we do this together?
Is this manipulating?
Will this make you hate me?

If this side's really greener
Why's it so barren here?
Feels like I can barely find a friend
It can't be only you, although that's what I'd choose

Nothing left to do but try again

I will reach out next Friday
I will make friends, stop hiding
I will cringe at your accomplishments
I will take on these problems
I'll grit my teeth and solve them
I will say or do anything
If you'll stay with me



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