fade out

And I'm feeling kinda tired these days
Kinda wish I knew a god so I'd pray
The coral's duller when I don't look away
This can't be (can't be, can't be, can't be)
The cyclical life
Begin with optimism and you'll end up with spite
Optometry so that you can see clearer at night
You'll do that a lot (a lot, a lot, a lot)
I stood on water again
They treat me like a god, but I'm just like the all the men
You'll leave me with the wolves as if my name wasn't Sen
Still talk to you in my mind (my mind, my mind, my mind)
Think I'll walk out of sight
Sound gets muffled when my vision takes flight
The troubled nature of the deer in headlight
But my baby won't cry (won't cry, won't cry, won't cry)

Sometime I hope that I'll fade out, my god
The neurons in my mind are fighting for the other side
So I'll fade out, my god
The sand falls through the hourglass, but I know I tried

I looked at the pond, no reflection there
Reflecting on all of choices, because that's what brought me here
I cry but there are no more tears
What ever went wrong?
(Went wrong?, What went wrong?, What went wrong?, What went wrong?)
My brain rattle, spinning like a washing machine
My mind is covered in filth, but it just wont come clean
What if I wake up yesterday, and this was all just a dream?
One could hope (could hope, could hope)
And if I fade out, tell that there's something there
Beyond the furniture, the waiting room, the ugly chair
And when I fade out, tell me I'll still be alive
The morning sun's blue, the atmosphere's beyond my mind

Neurogenesis, my brain's still alive
You told me "sorry for your loss", but I told a lie
You thought you knew all of my scars, but you're missing five
I know I'm at my lowest point, but at least I tried
The train just hit the station, time for me to ride
And you better know the dollar on the ground's a sign
And I'm speaking when I've faded like a failed mime
I'll leave you with this message hoping that it still survives
And when I fade out, promise that you won't cry
Promise me that, say you promise me that

The time continuum will break when I give the word
The cold steel feels nicer than the sunny world
You're so linear, stick to your dimension third
I could've left you here alone if that's what you preferred
I crawl around inside your head, I'm like a parasite
Things get darker but I only come alive at night
The minutes fade into hours, the lost-to-time man's plight
The minute hands fall backwards, there's no end in sight
The minute that the last grain falls is when I'll say good night
The credits roll, but I'm hoping for a final light
And I'm fading fast, hold me close and please just hold me tight
And I thank you for watching, one day we'll reunite