are you there tonight?

I had a dream you were getting married on my birthday
A reckoning to know just how well I've stayed in the same place
You downed a bottle of some good champagne
Wished you could long for a love that was not mine
I blew out the candles on my birthday cake
Wished I was turning eighteen for the third time

I know we're not speaking
But I'm off the deep end

So I think of the first time you touched me and it decorates my mind
What's it like to know that my body was yours before it was mine
Do you revisit the place where you left it
When you do do you think of me
And are you there tonight, are you there tonight

If I keep all that you left in a box
Maybe then you'll come and get your things
If remember how you got that scar maybe then you won't forget me
I look for you in all of the places that used to make this our town
Don't know if I'm in love or if I'm jaded
Is there a difference when you're not around

So I think of the first time you touched me and it decorates my mind
What's it like to know that my body was yours before it was mine?
Do you revisit the place where you left it
When you do do you think of me
And are you there tonight, are you there tonight

Are you there tonight
Are you getting high
Do you waste your time
Like I'm wasting mine
When you're by her side
Does her shadow hide
The boy who used to love me right
Is he there tonight
Cause I'm there tonight