Making My Escape

As the first sun rays
Make their way
Though the dark
Creating the day
I embark
On a journey
To find that spark
That used to reside
In my heart
Next to my deepest yearning
But now I'm falling apart
On some roadside
On a broke-down gurney
Am I facing a burning
Eternity
Of grief
Or is there relief
At the end of this
I own even know which way to go
To
Try to make sense of this
Am I too sensitive
Or, tell me, is the world too cold
I don't know how to call it
Used to hang with drug addicts and alcoholics
And you are who you're with
When you're out there in the streets hangin' like bollocks
When we were young and gifted we used to frolic
Around
Without a care in the world
Now we're down
In the trenches
Helpin' to tear up the world
Vision impaired
Fists clenched just
Like oysters around pearls
For any who dare
To add to our suspense
Too intensely
All the self-confidence
In existence
Couldn't convince me
That we'll be successful in our resistance
Feeling so empty
At times; easily bogged down with pessimism in an instant
So don't tempt me
When I'm
ready for whatever
Cuz i might jus' simply
Decide that I'm too clever
To engage in a losing endeavour
Broke the lock to the cage
And now I'm making my escape
Through any weather
Ain't nothing gon stop my rise
No shame in my game
Conscience feelin light as a feather
Cuz i know i'm making my way
To a brighter day
Left the world behind
Cuz it's
No longer mine
Was it ever even
To begin with
What will be when I'm no longer breathin'
I own know
All I've got is this current season
And I've gotta go
With what shows
No ego pleasin'
Just a little pep talk
For the soul
Releasin
Negative energy
Digging deeper into me
Hoping I strike gold
Discover my inner symphony
Experience peace infinitely
Set up camp here tentatively
Get to know myself again, B
I'm in the
Habit
Of hunting down my desire to grab it
But Imma take it easy for a minute
Stop howling like a wolf
Start grazin' like a rabbit
It's amazin what happens
When you stop stompin' your hoof
I mean foot, and just relax 'n'
Forget for moment all the bullshit that stays taxin'
Your mental
When ya tryna plan action
Nothing coincidental
In this existence
So better learn to tune your persistence
To the current state of events, it's
Sure nice to dream
But sometimes you need to build fences
To stand in between
Your defenses
And obscene
Wills
That want what you've built
And will kill
To have it
Burst your bubble
In a heartbeat
When they stab it
There's too much static
Drama in this life is automatic
So if you find an unlocked exit door handle
Grab it
Give it a turn it and make
A break
Like a vandal
After burnin' the candle
At both ends for years
I realized it was time to stop chasin' fears
And stop wastin' tears
And start thinkin' clear
And stop drinkin' what they sellin
Form my own ideas
Take care of my melon
And the rest of me
If I wanna put forth the best of me
I gotta reinvest in me
Be a living testament
To reinvention
A rebirth with intention
Expanding dimensions
Of what I mentally envision
The look in my eyes may
Say
I've gone fishin'
But I'm actually just swimmin
Deep in the realm of intuition
Forgettin'
About physical livin'
And limits
For just a minute
Imma take just a minute

Now I'm back
And I'm ready
My aim's steady
My eyes no longer heavy
Feelin stronger ev'ry
Passin' moment
Fomenting cataclysmic
Yet opportunistic
Advantages against my opponents
Futuristic thinking
Got me drinking
From a fountain
Of prosperity
God up on the mountain
Smilin, cuz they sparin' me
I'm tearing the
Veil away from my face
And sharing the
Knowledge i gain
With those in pain
So we can build something to replace
The ugliness in this space
Until it's gone without a trace
I'm

Gone without a trace