I Can't Decide

I am the queen inside my room
I am the face of someone's doom
If you think you've seen me before
That's probably true.

You are addicted to the taste
Salt from our tears sting hot with rage
If this is all there is to love,
What else can I do?

Catch you till I let you you go
Never know when I will lose my grip
But I can assure you it won't be long.

Eenie meenie minie mo!
Gotcha by so much more than your toe
Never say I never warned you.

In either eye
I see so different
When you arrive
And when you go
I can't decide which side I side with
followed my heart to the death.

What if this is just a test?
What if I am cruelly mistaken?
Could I live with all the regret? I guess?

Even if I close the door
It's already set to swing open
There's a right for every time I swipe left, yes?

I'm too ashamed of myself
To care what you think of me.
Fear floods each one of my veins. I'm high on insecurity.

Filter my feelings, filter my face
Trap my trust, fuel my lust oh validate
Me and my demons, tear at my faith.
Pour my cup. Beg for love. Hate while I wait.