All Mine

Something about not needing to cut my hair anymore
Something about the clean clothes staying off the floor
Oh it's something about my friends
Saying it looks like I can finally breathe again
Something about how a smile can come so naturally
Something about this poor little heart slowing down
Oh there's something about the way
The pharmacist doesn't know my name anymore

It took time
It took crying
It took looking in the mirror and then turning away
It took a year
To end up here
With a dream come true in my calendar
With a love that I call home
With a one bedroom
My piano in tune
And a life that's all mine

Some days I'll drive out east and not turn my music on
Cuz sometimes the silence is the sweetest sound
And that someday is here today
When my mind is at peace, no longer a battle ground

Something about those moments when you look at me
Now I hold your gaze without flinching or turning away
I knew you saw me from that very first glance
Took a chance and had patience to see what I could be

And it took pain
And waiting in the rain
It took knowing when to write and when to throw it away
It took grace
And taking up space
To see what I got was what I gave
And if I gave myself a try
I'd see that I
Had the light inside
To get through it this whole time

I think about that little girl
Who ran wild down the hills
She knew so much more than I do now
And I think I ever will
She was always looking out for me
With how big she dared to dream
I swear that I can hear her now
Saying she can't wait to be me
Isn't that something

Something about how I always end up back at home
Something about my brother laughing upstairs
Something about my dad
Giving me more than he has
And something about my mom
Always holding me when things go wrong
Oh there's something about it all
That makes me want to stop time
In this life that's all mine
Mine