Change Up

It's a crazy feeling to have nothing to give
And want to give everything
It's a crazy feeling to have something to live for
And not let it die for anything
It's the haze be filling my lungs up
Til my tongue's up and it lingers
Hittin these notes just a little bit different
But I still know I'm not a singer
I've always been more of a thinker
Touchin her spots when it's wet and it's hot
I always knew where I would bring her
I never wanted to change her
But I couldn't afford to change up
No, I couldn't afford to change up

You'd look at me like Lois did to Clark
Came back around for seconds like a clock
Only changing my lane to avoid the cops
Only change your name if you avoid the dra ma ma ma
Put that on my Momma
Can't say I care much for commas
I know when conversation come up
Bet they can't help but talk bout a come up
Ironic they come down with something then
Like a stomach bug stuck in my gut tryna stomach them
Not unloading this baggage for rummaging
I'm not running but still buildin momentum
Momentarily falling feels scarier
With my fam by the grave where they buried her
Only thing I changed since was my barrier
Carried my confidence like how I carried her
But you couldn't stay caring for me
It's becoming apparent to me
When we were preparing as parents to be
Your clarity wasn't clear enough to see
Changing the cast from the director's seat
All in hopes of seeing some better scenes
You never needed to change anything

It's a crazy feeling to have nothing to give
And want to give everything
It's a crazy feeling to have something to live for
And not let it die for anything
It's the haze be filling my lungs up
Til my tongue's up and it lingers
Hittin these notes just a little bit different
But I still know I'm not a singer
I've always been more of a thinker
Touchin the spots when it's wet and it's hot
I always knew where I would bring her
I never wanted to change her
But I couldn't afford to change up
No I couldn't afford to change up

Tried to change myself
Felt like a forced fit
Tried to blame myself
You put up a force field
Forcefully it felt like sorcery to hear the force was me
Course it's he who was the source to be
An awful reason
To surround yourself with poison people
Curiosities got you face to face with monstrosities
Hanging round a cult of lack of personalities
Sank into the hole you dug so quietly
Like it was quicksand
Couldn't say what you were thinking
Or even if you did at all
Knew you'd know you had lost it all
Go ahead and tip your bottle of that alcohol
Got a handle on it with no handlebars
You could try to buy my love
Still can't afford it
Got my heart
And that's worth a fortune
Even when it's broken
Love's worth the torture
Torrential downpours coming down like poison
I had no choice in taking
A better life I'm making
Husband and wife I'm thinking

Ooo

If I didn't change on you
Don't change up on me too
If I didn't change on you
Don't change up your point of view
Didn't need to change up
Never had to change up on you
Should've never changed up
All I ever told you was

It's a crazy feeling to have nothing to give
And want to give everything
It's a crazy feeling to have something to live for
And not let it die for anything
It's the haze be filling my lungs up
Til my tongue's up and it lingers
Hittin these notes just a little bit different
But I still know I'm not a singer
I've always been more of a thinker
Touchin the spots when it's wet and it's hot,
I always knew where I would bring her
I never wanted to change her
But I couldn't afford to change up
No I couldn't afford to change up

It's a crazy feeling to have nothing to give
And want to give everything

It's the haze be filling my lungs up
Til my tongue's up and it lingers

I couldn't afford to change up